These days are quite tense days for me on a personal note and I wished to record it as many others may relate to it as well. The dilemma is quite strange but equally difficult to grasp. I am talking about losing hold of people who are quite well and healthy and happy in their lives and who are as best my friends and family now as they always were. Yet the feeling of losing hold of them is quite intense.
I have always been considered as someone who has been blessed with great company. I have wonderful family and some of the greatest people as peers and friends anyone can ever imagine. I was blessed with greatest of my memories in past ten years. These have been my most blessed years of life. More so because I had my family, my teachers and my friends around me. The thought of ever being without such great companions never struck me....
But then, it started happening...the family started to take its logical course of action as siblings started to move out as they grew in age. Younger sisters and brothers who grew up before me started looking so mature that at one time it pleased and at another it saddened with the realization that another thread with my own childhood has collapsed. We, were children a few years back and we were becoming parents now. The feeling was both of accomplishment and of nostalgia.
And now, another transition is taking place. The problem for me is that transitions are so quick that my mind is unable to grasp it. The circle of peers and friends that we (and I in particular) cultivated with so much love started to disperse. In the words of another friend "Our swarm has started whirling". It started with departure of our respected teachers, Dr. Anwar M. Mirza and Dr. Rauf Baig departing for Saudi Arabia in quick succesion. It was followed by departure of Dr. Amjad to Lahore which suddenly started feeling like another country. And now, Dr. Arfan Jaffar is about to leave for South Korea. Despite wishing all of these great and lovely comrades every happiness in the world, somewhere inside my heart, I wish the time to roll back and some how grab all of them again within my circle of loved ones.
So, a very warm happy birthday to myself which is looking so lonely and so sad this year...without my very loved friends and well wishers around me...A personal nostalgia
These days are quite tense days for me on a personal note and I wished to record it as many others may relate to it as well. The dilemma is quite strange but equally difficult to grasp. I am talking about losing hold of people who are quite well and healthy and happy in their lives and who are as best my friends and family now as they always were. Yet the feeling of losing hold of them is quite intense.
I have always been considered as someone who has been blessed with great company. I have wonderful family and some of the greatest people as peers and friends anyone can ever imagine. I was blessed with greatest of my memories in past ten years. These have been my most blessed years of life. More so because I had my family, my teachers and my friends around me. The thought of ever being without such great companions never struck me....
But then, it started happening...the family started to take its logical course of action as siblings started to move out as they grew in age. Younger sisters and brothers who grew up before me started looking so mature that at one time it pleased and at another it saddened with the realization that another thread with my own childhood has collapsed. We, were children a few years back and we were becoming parents now. The feeling was both of accomplishment and of nostalgia.
And now, another transition is taking place. The problem for me is that transitions are so quick that my mind is unable to grasp it. The circle of peers and friends that we (and I in particular) cultivated with so much love started to disperse. In the words of another friend "Our swarm has started whirling". It started with departure of our respected teachers, Dr. Anwar M. Mirza and Dr. Rauf Baig departing for Saudi Arabia in quick succesion. It was followed by departure of Dr. Amjad to Lahore which suddenly started feeling like another country. And now, Dr. Arfan Jaffar is about to leave for South Korea. Despite wishing all of these great and lovely comrades every happiness in the world, somewhere inside my heart, I wish the time to roll back and some how grab all of them again within my circle of loved ones.
So, a very warm happy birthday to myself which is looking so lonely and so sad this year...without my very loved friends and well wishers around me...A personal nostalgia
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